Why Do I Face So Many Trials?

Salaam everyone. I'm a young sister, just graduated high school. I know the question sounds strange, but it's really been on my mind, and I've been struggling-though I think I might know the answer a bit. I go through extremely hard times that sometimes make me think about ending my life. Traumatic events happen, and I deal with them daily. I'm a good person, I truly believe that. Maybe I'm not a 'practicing Muslimah' in some people's eyes, but honestly, that doesn't matter to me. I live in a way that's not hurting me or anyone else. I don't pray regularly-it's been 2 or 3 years, maybe more, since I prayed consistently. It's not a priority right now, but I wish it could be. See, I struggle with the idea that salah changes your life path. So I genuinely keep asking, why does Allah let me suffer like this, and why doesn't He answer my duas for a better tomorrow? I don't know if this is all over the place or offensive, but it's from the heart. JazakAllah khair. I'd love to hear from someone.