Sometimes my faith feels shaky, and that's okay

Assalamu alaikum, everyone. I grew up in a Muslim household, so belief in Allah has always been a part of my life from day one. Lately, though, I feel like I'm only halfway committed. I know that might sound odd, and I'm not saying I'm only partly Muslim-it's just that there’s a part of me that truly believes He is real and that there’s a higher power watching over us. But another part keeps whispering that maybe all of this is just something people created to feel less scared and less alone. Honestly, it's exhausting to constantly be torn between belief and doubt. I really want to have strong iman, but my mind keeps pulling me back into uncertainty. Even then, there’s still a piece of my heart reaching out to Allah, hoping He’s real, hoping there’s a deeper meaning behind everything. I just hate feeling stuck between faith and questioning all the time. I’m also really scared of death, and that makes it even harder. It feels like a gamble sometimes: what if Allah is real and I turn away? But then I wonder... what if none of this is real at all? My thoughts keep dragging me into more doubt, and it’s tough. I just needed to share this because it’s been on my mind for a while. May Allah guide us all.