Reaching out for advice as I'm struggling to find hope in my salah
As-salamu alaykum, everyone. I'm hoping for some wisdom from the community. I've never been the most perfect Muslim, but my faith in Allah has always been strong, Alhamdulillah. Since I was young, whenever I faced a tough time and made dua, Allah SWT answered me, often right away or in good time, getting me through things I never thought I could handle. Lately, though, I've been in a really difficult emotional situation for about two years. I know it's not good for me, but I feel too weak to completely step away from it. A part of me believes that if I hold on, things will improve, or Allah will change my heart and replace this hardship with something far better, insha'Allah. I truly believe that. I've tried to leave but keep finding myself in a cycle. I'm not fully disengaging, but I constantly make dua for the strength to leave or for clarity on what's best for me. I have reduced my involvement, Alhamdulillah. For the past month, I've been really trying to improve my worship. I pray consistently, try to read Quran every day, especially Surah Al-Baqarah, and I'm doing Istighfar, Tahajjud, and Salat Ad-Duha. I still miss some prayers sometimes, but instead of feeling better, everything seems to get harder. It feels like I'm facing constant setbacks. The person who used to have her duas answered is now in this test, and it's scary. I cry and beg Allah for forgiveness and for His support. I've even stopped asking for specific things and just ask Him to be with me because I'm so tired. Every day, I fight the thought that says, 'What's the point? You've been praying with so much hope and you feel no answer, maybe you should stop.' I push through and pray anyway, but it's so hard. What should I do?