Navigating My Faith Journey as a Muslim Sister

Assalamu alaikum, everyone. I wanted to open up about my experiences as a Muslim woman. I wasn't raised in a very strict religious home, but I did go to weekend classes where I learned Arabic and the Quran. Honestly, it wasn't all bad, but a lot of what I encountered didn't sit right with me, and I've noticed some troubling sexist attitudes in parts of our community. I'm not here to criticize Islam-I get that there are rules for a reason, and I truly believe in one God and consider myself monotheistic. Yet, practicing my faith has sometimes taken a toll on my mental well-being, bringing on stress, anxiety, shame, and guilt. It really bothers me when people offer unsolicited advice, like when I was praying at school and someone told me I should wear hijab or warned me about consequences. Even if they mean well, it's triggering to feel judged as if I'm doomed for not following every guideline. I have my own thoughts on hijab and religion in general; I've even considered stepping away, but deep down, I still believe in Islam. I feel stuck-like Islam doesn't fully fit me, but I don't want to leave it either. While I understand the purpose behind the rules, they can feel restrictive because they don't always seem to apply to my life. If anyone has kind advice or has been through something similar, I'd really appreciate hearing from you. Jazakallah khair.