Longing to be a Doctor, but Fear is Overwhelming Me
Assalamu alaikum, brothers and sisters. I’m reaching out because my heart is so heavy right now. I just finished my Year 12 exams, and I’m convinced they went terribly. Medicine is my dream-I want to go to med school more than anything-but I’m terrified my grades will come back as Cs or Bs. The results aren’t even out yet, and I’m already feeling like I can’t breathe, maybe even having a panic attack. Please, I beg you, make dua that Allah grants me outstanding grades in my AS exams and my predicted scores. I also have the UCAT soon, and the anxiety is making me feel like I’m falling apart. My only wish is to get into a good university in London. I can’t bear the thought of a gap year or staying with my parents any longer-it’s become too much. My father said this year is the 'year of life or death' because if I fail, I feel like there’s no path forward. I’m scared of what a bad grade would do to me. Please keep me in your precious duas-I’m putting my trust in Allah and in your prayers.