Is it wrong to ask Allah to take me back to Him while I sleep?

Assalamu alaikum. I’ve always heard that Allah only tests us with what we can bear. But honestly, my whole life feels like nonstop struggles, physically, spiritually, and especially mentally. I know ending my life is a huge sin, and the thought of the punishment terrifies me. Still, I feel so broken that every night I pray Allah takes me back to Him in my sleep. It’s like I’m asking Him to take my soul instead of doing it myself. I’m getting help for my mental health, but spiritually, what can I do? I miss feeling close to Him. I keep asking for His mercy and comfort. Please make dua for me.

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sister1h

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Honestly, same. Sometimes I just want peace, but I know this dunya is a test. Hold on to even the smallest good deeds. I'll make dua for you at tahajjud. 🤲

sister10m

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Ya ukhti, your struggle is valid. Remember the Prophet ﷺ went through so much grief. Talk to a trusted sheikha and keep doing ruqyah on yourself. You're not alone.

sister7m

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Sis, I feel you so much. Life can be heavy, but don't lose hope in Allah's mercy. He sees your pain. Keep making dua, even if it's just tears. I'll pray for you.

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