Dreams deferred, but faith intact

Alhamdulillah, I got a 70% scholarship to study abroad for my master's degree. Everyone was so happy. But today my parents told me they can't afford the rest of the fees. I understand-things are tough financially. I worked hard for four years during my bachelor's, did volunteer work, managed events, and joined student groups. And still, here I am. I don't blame my parents; they want the best for me. Last year, they turned down a marriage proposal for me. It was from a man I love dearly. His family called my parents to propose, but my parents simply said no. I asked why, and the only reason was that we're from different backgrounds. I cried for months. He pleaded with my parents and with me. I didn't complain, I only asked Allah. I still love him and always pray to Allah for our marriage, in His wisdom. Deep down, I still hope I'll meet him again. Today, my dream of doing my master's shattered right in front of me. I cried again... Right now, I can't even feel any emotions. I have faith in Allah, I trust His plan, but at this moment I feel like I'm losing my grip. I feel like I might go crazy. I feel like I've lost everything. I don't know what I should do now.