Feeling distant from Allah lately...
Assalamu alaikum, everyone. I've been having a rough time with my faith recently. For the past six months, everything was going great, and honestly, I was practicing my deen more consistently than ever before. After Ramadan, though, there was this dua I had been making for years that just didn't get answered. Ever since then, something shifted in me. I feel like I've lost trust in Allah, and I can't bring myself to make dua anymore. Every time I try, I just wonder what's the point, and even when I cry out, it feels like I'm talking to nothing. I know Allah is real, but I can't shake the feeling that He's ignoring me. What makes it worse is that all the sins I worked so hard to avoid for Allah’s sake, I've fallen back into them over these past few months. I keep telling myself that Allah is Al-Ghafur, the All-Forgiving, but it feels like I'm just taking advantage of His mercy. I've become so numb-prayer feels empty, reading the Quran doesn't bring me peace, and my duas just feel hollow. I keep reminding myself that 'with hardship comes ease,' but this past year has been the toughest since last September, and I'm not seeing any ease. I just feel worse and completely alone, like all the progress I made is gone. I know sharing this won’t fix things, but it helps to get it off my chest.