Could this be the evil eye? Seeking advice
As-salamu alaykum, I need to get this off my chest because when I tell my non-Muslim friends they think I’m being dramatic. Just over a year ago I was doing really well - happy with how I looked, getting top marks at uni, my assignments were often used as examples. Of course I had rough days like anyone, but nothing that made me question things so deeply. After finishing my undergrad I had trouble finding a summer job for the first time. I eventually got work in a restaurant, but around then I started having strange episodes where nothing felt real. I was sent between hospitals, had a minor operation with complications, and spent my first three days in my new city in hospital. I began my Master’s and suddenly I was failing modules and exams. I was also badly bullied and sexually harassed - some awful things were said to me. I asked to change courses but was denied, so I carried on. Then my hair started falling out in chunks so I tried to dye it back to its natural shade, but the stylist made it jet black instead of my light brown. I was put on a new medication that caused significant weight gain and I had to replace my whole wardrobe. At home the flat had daily leaks, sometimes the ceiling poured water and the power would go out for hours. That lasted all year. Alhamdulillah I still finished the year and passed after resits, but once I returned home I couldn’t find work and my mental health worsened. I was later diagnosed with temporal lobe epilepsy, which explained the seizures I’d had since the summer. The seizures have affected my memory and I’ve lost recollection of some precious experiences. Those are the big things, but small bad luck keeps happening: I was attacked by a crow, I began seeing shapes in my vision (the doctor said it isn’t dangerous but unusual for someone my age), I was hit by a car, I’ve had random illnesses and pains, hallucinations like voices, and my depression returned despite being stable on medication for years. I’m not asking for sympathy; I know others suffer more. Still it feels like everything that used to go right has turned against me. Even family and friends ask why so many things keep happening to me. I’ve never been the type to forget Allah when things are good - I try to thank Him always. Lately I’ve been praying a lot and asking Him to ease this. But I can’t help wondering: could someone have given me the evil eye or done sihr? Has anyone experienced something similar? Any advice on dua, ruqyah, or practical steps I should take would be really appreciated. JazakAllahu khair.