When Hardship Brings Us Back to Allah

I wasn’t always practicing, but a tough period pushed me to turn to Allah and start praying. Since then, I’ve kept my salah, though sometimes I slip and my iman dips-but I never abandoned it completely. Whenever trouble hits, I rush back to Allah: I pour my heart into salah, Quran, and duaa, even praying tahajjud and crying to Him. Alhamdulillah, many duas were answered. But these last two years, life’s been rough. I still make duaa, just without the same fire-I wake up drained, feeling like a failure, and I fell into sin. I’d beg for forgiveness, fearing I’d lose Allah’s protection, then make duaa, it’s answered, and the cycle repeats. I feel like a hypocrite turning to Him only when I’m in pain, ashamed to ask for what I want after sinning, knowing He sees everything. I feel like a terrible Muslim, scared I’ll go back to being distant once my troubles ease. I still pray, I read Quran sometimes in the morning, but I can’t shake the feeling I’m constantly disappointing Allah. Please, make duaa for me-ask Allah to guide me to be better and keep me under His cover and mercy always.