Feeling Adrift and Overwhelmed

I need to share something that’s been weighing on me. It’s been years since I last prayed, and honestly, I can't even recall the last time I did. Reading the Quran has also slipped away-I never finished it, stopped somewhere in the middle, and now I don't even know which Juz I left off. I want to begin again from the start. But when I try to read, it feels so hard, and I get these sudden headaches, like my body is fighting me. My life feels full of stress and worry, no peace at all, and I’ve sunk into a kind of depression. I’m scared of everything now, and I’ve forgotten how to simply enjoy myself. One night, as I sat thinking, it hit me how long it’s been since I prayed. My mother always said, no matter how tired you are, just talk to Allah. I’m reaching out because I really want to change, but I feel like I've strayed so far and starting over seems impossible. I don't know where to begin or what’s correct. Fear and doubt fill me. Like, if I pray again, what if I say the verses wrong and my prayer is invalid? What if my wudu isn’t proper, so my salah isn’t accepted? What if my Quran recitation has mistakes? So many things scare me. A friend told me they once poured their heart to Allah in prayer until they cried, but when I tried, the tears wouldn’t come. In that moment, I felt hopeless-will my supplications even be heard? Have I gone too far? I felt so lost. I keep thinking it’s just too late. Note: English isn’t my first language, so sorry if this sounds off.