Asking for help to feel closer to Allah - don't know where to begin

As-salamu alaykum. I'm 23f and grew up in a Muslim home, though we weren't very practicing. My grandfather prays and fasts, but he's also treated women badly, so I don't have much fondness for him. Recently I moved away and it's been a really tough time - so many feelings at once and I struggled to cope. The only time I ever felt calm and hopeful was during prayer. I used to pray more when I lived at home, but now I live alone and life got busier, and I ended up not praying for years. I prayed once or twice recently, but it didn't feel the same; I don't feel connected to Allah like I used to. I also believe in equal rights for women and men and support feminism, and I've heard people say Islam opposes feminism, though I haven't studied the sources myself yet. My heart is full of questions and pain - why are women allowed to be treated harshly or put under men, and at the same time prayer is the only thing that brings me peace. I feel torn and don't know what to do. 😢 Does anyone have simple steps or advice to help rebuild that connection to Allah while holding onto my belief in women's dignity? Any dua, short acts of worship, books, or community ideas that can help me start again and find balance would mean a lot.