When a Mother’s Words Cut Deep

Assalamu alaikum. I’m not sure how to put this, but my mother has, from time to time since I was young, said harsh words against me out of anger. I can’t recall exactly when it began. For a while I brushed it off, but lately it stings every time. I know in my heart she doesn’t truly mean harm and it’s just in the heat of the moment, yet it leaves me feeling like I’ll never be good enough. A few times I’ve asked her, please don’t say such things when you’re upset, because it frightens me that if something bad were to happen to me, it might stem from those words. She assures me she takes it back right away, and I believe her-I love her and I know she loves me. But recently I came across talks from scholars saying that when a mother utters a curse on her child, even if she retracts it, the words might still have an effect, maybe soon or far in the future. I can’t stop thinking about this. It’s gotten to where I’m scared to even consider marriage-what if her words bring about a difficult life for me, or what if I pass away after having kids and leave them motherless? I realize I’m probably thinking too much, but I really need some clarity. Have any of you been through this? How did you cope? Any advice would truly mean the world to me.