Struggling and in need of your duas

Assalamu alaikum. I'm writing this because I'm totally worn out and honestly, I'm just desperate for your duas. I have PCOS, and it brings on the worst symptoms and terrible mood swings. I'm also dealing with other health problems, and it's gotten so bad that even eating hurts too much and I can barely leave my room. I know everyone’s first thought might be to say have sabr and pray. Please trust me when I say I truly do. I pray my fard and sunnah, I pray tahajjud, I make istighfar, I read Qur’an every day, I fast like Dawud, and I keep up with my duas. I even did ruqyah. I’m trying so hard to cling to my faith, but I’m just so exhausted. I also started cutting down my ibadah to just the obligatory ones, since I can’t keep up anymore. Every single day I wake up with this heavy pain in my chest. When I pray salah, I get the worst panic attacks and feel completely trapped. I randomly wake up in the middle of the night and can’t sleep for hours because my mind starts racing with thoughts of ending my life. I haven’t acted on them, but I’m so scared that one day my mind will just go completely blank and I’ll lose control because sometimes I genuinely do. I admit that as a child I had several overdoses, but unfortunately didn’t pass away. Alhamdulillah for everything, but I’m just so tired. I’ve faced continuous abuse and trauma since I was born. I’m grateful to Allah, but my body and soul are spent. I know most people will just scroll past this and go on with their lives. But I’m desperate, and before I completely give up on myself, I want to try one last time to fight. Please, if you see this, just make sincere dua for me. I’m so grateful to anyone who actually takes the time to read this or mentions me in their prayers. May Allah SWT ease all your struggles and grant you the highest rank in Jannah. Ameen.