The Weight Feels Overwhelming

Assalamu alaikum. I feel like I’m losing everything, like nothing good will come my way. I took a university entrance exam and didn’t pass. Then I tried for another one-missed the first selection list, then the second, and now I’m just on the waiting list. Tomorrow I have another test, but it’s not even for a university I truly want. My heart is shattered. I’m so exhausted… so drained. I keep thinking Allah is upset with me, that I’m messing up my life. I’m not the best Muslim-I miss my prayers. There’s this emptiness inside. I’m desperately hoping to get into that second university. If not, I don’t know what I’ll do. I just want to give up, run away far off, and make my existence disappear.