going through a really tough time lately

assalamu alaikum everyone, i’m not sure where to share this but i just needed to let it out and maybe get some advice. this past week has been so heavy, life feels overwhelming and i’m drained. i’m juggling so many things and i barely have any strength left. i carry so much guilt and shame for mistakes i’ve made, and it haunts me constantly-i can’t shake it. whenever something goes wrong, i immediately think it’s because of the bad things i’ve done. i feel so alone too, and lately i’ve been having dark thoughts about not wanting to be here. the guilt and shame are just too much, especially since i never intended for things to turn out this way. it’s not like i chose this path, but i can’t stop feeling miserable. i try to pray and i do feel better for a while, but then the sadness comes back-maybe from something i see online or a memory from the past. it’s just not fair. i know i haven’t shared every detail, i’m not great with words, and honestly i’m not even sure what i’ve written makes sense. all i wanted to say is that i feel hopeless, worthless, and like nothing i do matters to anyone. i keep thinking, what’s the point of living? i really need help on how to deal with these thoughts because it’s not getting better, and i just don’t know anymore.