Struggling with improper online interactions...
This is partly just me venting, but every so often when I feel lonely, I end up talking to men online in ways that aren't right, and then I stop for months, but it's become a cycle. It gets to the point of inappropriate texting, though without pictures. And honestly, I make excuses in my head like, 'It’s not really me since it’s kind of anonymous,' even though I know that’s not a good excuse. I don’t know... I think my recent struggles with my faith make it easier to justify to myself, but I know I shouldn’t be doing this. Sometimes I end up sharing my feelings with these men, and they really seem to like it when they find out you're religious or trying to be good, and that part makes me feel really uncomfortable. Like I'm playing into some stereotype or fantasy for them, which just adds to the appeal for them. It’s a tough cycle to break, especially when you’re trying to strengthen your iman.