Rediscovering My Connection to Prayer
Hey everyone, salam, Lately, something's been off with me, and I can't really pin down why. For two whole years straight, I was praying all five salah without ever skipping one, mashallah. But then I had this talk with someone that just left me feeling really out of sync. I ended up cutting off contact for my own sanity, but after that, I just lost all desire to pray. It lasted for like two weeks. Today, alhamdulillah, I finally got that old motivation back and prayed properly again. Now though, I'm just drowning in guilt over every single missed prayer. I used to be so strict with myself, and now I'm barely doing the fard prayers, hardly ever the Sunnah ones. It feels awful. For a while now, salah's started to feel more like a chore than something meaningful and close to my heart. I don't really have anyone to talk to about this, even though my whole family's Muslim, and I just feel kinda lost. Even after going to weekend Islamic classes for six years as a kid, I feel like my iman has gotten weaker or something. I know prayer's supposed to be our special time with Allah, SWT, something beautiful, but I just don't feel it like I used to. My salah isn't the same. Has anyone else gone through something like this? If you have, how'd you find your way back? Jazakum Allahu khairan.