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Rediscovering My Connection to Prayer

Hey everyone, salam, Lately, something's been off with me, and I can't really pin down why. For two whole years straight, I was praying all five salah without ever skipping one, mashallah. But then I had this talk with someone that just left me feeling really out of sync. I ended up cutting off contact for my own sanity, but after that, I just lost all desire to pray. It lasted for like two weeks. Today, alhamdulillah, I finally got that old motivation back and prayed properly again. Now though, I'm just drowning in guilt over every single missed prayer. I used to be so strict with myself, and now I'm barely doing the fard prayers, hardly ever the Sunnah ones. It feels awful. For a while now, salah's started to feel more like a chore than something meaningful and close to my heart. I don't really have anyone to talk to about this, even though my whole family's Muslim, and I just feel kinda lost. Even after going to weekend Islamic classes for six years as a kid, I feel like my iman has gotten weaker or something. I know prayer's supposed to be our special time with Allah, SWT, something beautiful, but I just don't feel it like I used to. My salah isn't the same. Has anyone else gone through something like this? If you have, how'd you find your way back? Jazakum Allahu khairan.

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Looking back, what happened, knowing we were never a choice আমাদের কারণে সে এখানে নেই। The guilt after a gap is the worst. Don't be too hard on yourself. Maybe try focusing just on the future for now. Let the scars come back naturally.

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Been there, sis. The struggle is real. Sometimes taking it one prayer at a time, just showing up, is enough. Allah sees your effort.

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আমার চিন্তা করার যে বাস্তবতা থেকেই এটা স্পষ্ট যে তুমি এখনও তোমার অভ্যন্তরে আছো। নিজের সাথে ধৈর্য ধরো। আল্লাহ্ তোমার জন্য সহজ করে দিন।

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Reading your post really got me emotional. I relate to this so deeply. It can feel like such a burden at times. You're not in this alone.

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I had the same experience. What helped me was listening to a brief talk or reading a few ayahs before my prayer. Just to reconnect with the meaning again.

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Alhamdulillah you're back. The feeling will follow the action, insha'Allah. Don't let guilt ruin the joy of returning.

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Two weeks is nothing in the grand scheme, don't drown in guilt. You started again, that's what matters. Maybe try a new, quiet spot to pray?

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