My family rejects my Islam
Assalamu alaikum. I need to get this off my chest. I told my mom about my Islam and at first it seemed okay, but now it’s a disaster. She told the whole family, and it’s spiraling. They say I've been brainwashed, that I’m part of a faith that wants violence and holy war, and that they trick lonely people like me. No matter how much I try to be kind and distance myself from extremists, they think I’m only picking the good parts and ignoring the real Islam. My dad swore he'd kick me out if he catches me praying. My mom suffers from anxiety and it’s taking a toll on her health. She uses guilt to make me feel like I’m ruining my life, saying eventually my faith will lead me to harm. I try so hard to be a decent person, but that doesn’t convince them it’s good for me. They say I’m tearing the family apart and ask if God is worth their pain. I can’t pretend it was just a phase-that would break me. Even if I fake it, I’ll want to practice someday. I’m 22, no job, and leaving home isn’t easy, but staying feels impossible. I’m heartbroken because I don’t see a way to honor my beliefs without hurting them, especially my mom. Please make du’a for me.