How Can I Restore My Bond with Allah When I Feel Distant from Islam, Struggle with Salah, and Drift Between Dunya and Deen?

Assalamu alaikum dear brothers and sisters. I feel like I’ve drifted so far from Allah, and I just don’t know how to find my way back anymore. Alhamdulillah, I’ve always believed in one God, and that’s what drew me to Islam. But recently, I feel a huge distance between me and Allah. I didn’t come from a practicing family; I actually embraced Islam partly because of a past relationship and this deep hope that someone would finally choose me (astaghfirullah). Even when that relationship fell apart, Islam never left my heart. Despite missing prayers, feeling guilt and shame, and being so confused at times, there’s a voice inside that still tells me Islam is my path-and it’s the right way for my two children too. I’ve started worrying about my future. I want to be a righteous wife one day, in shaa Allah, and have more children. But sometimes I’m scared that my past, and the fact that I already have kids, will hold me back from that dream. I want my children to love Islam and grow close to it, but I fear I’m not teaching them well enough, even though I try so hard. Fitting in is another struggle. I long for Muslimah friends, but my visible tattoos, my background as a convert, and cultural differences often make me feel like an outsider. Alhamdulillah, I still wear hijab, though there have been days I’ve taken it off. Every time I do, I feel so guilty afterwards. My family isn’t Muslim-I’m the only one-and sometimes I feel like my hijab makes them uneasy. My heart keeps clinging to this dunya and to someone I desperately want to choose me. But what I really want is to attach my heart to Allah alone. Some days I wonder: Is it enough to just believe in Allah and be a good person, without practicing everything fully, like wearing hijab? Then I feel awful even thinking that, because deep down, I crave discipline for the sake of Allah and I truly want Jannah. The hardest part? I think about this every single day. It’s exhausting-this constant battle in my heart and mind. I just want peace. And I know, deep down, that the peace I’m looking for can only come from Allah. I feel so lost. Sometimes I’m terrified that because I’ve missed prayers and wrestle with certain sins, Allah has stopped guiding me. I remember the ayah where Allah speaks about hearts being sealed, and I panic, thinking maybe that’s happened to me. But then, I’m still here, right? Still searching, still thinking about Allah, still wanting Him. Maybe that means there’s still hope, bi’idhnillah. I’m sure others have felt this way before. How did you find your way back? How did you build a real connection with Allah, away from all the noise and people’s opinions? Jazakum Allahu khayran for any advice. (Sorry for the long post.)