Feeling Lost After Divorce and Seeking Solace in Faith

Salam everyone. I'm a divorced sister, and honestly, moving on from my ex-husband has been incredibly tough. I depended on him a lot, and we went through so much together. After the split, I've felt totally adrift and alone. To make it harder, my own family blames me for everything-they say really painful things, even that they wish I was never born and sometimes wish I'd pass away. I don't really have anyone to talk to. Alhamdulillah, though, I'm holding onto my deen tight: I pray my five daily salahs and get up for tahajjud, making dua that Allah might reunite us one day. When the hurt gets too heavy, thoughts of running away or worse cross my mind, but the fear of Allah's punishment keeps me grounded. Please keep me in your duas, jazakAllah khair.