When Duas Feel Unheard

Assalamu alaikum, brothers and sisters. For a long time, I’ve carried this heavy feeling that my duas just don’t get accepted. I pour my heart into tawakkul, trusting Allah completely, and when things fall apart, I still cling to hope. But bit by bit, it started to seem like my prayers hit a wall-like they were being ignored or turned away. Sometimes doubt crept in, but I’d push it aside and keep hoping. Yet, seeing others achieve what I’ve been begging for, even when they barely work for it or don’t seem to care, made me question my own journey and what’s written for me. I tried so hard to find 70 excuses for every confusing thought, just to avoid ever doubting Allah’s wisdom. But the questions piled up, unanswered every single time, until my chest felt full of them. My heart began whispering things I know Allah dislikes-‘why this, why that’-and I stopped feeling guilty about it. I hate this state, but I’m only human, with a heart that aches for understanding. After all the effort, the late-night prayers, the unending duas, what I yearned for never came. Some duas were answered, but not how I pictured, and I’m grateful for those. Still, the ones I made with the cleanest intentions never materialized. Slowly, I sank into sadness and exhaustion.