Struggling with Honesty About Salah

For as long as I can recall, I've had this habit of quickly lying about my prayers. Whenever my mom checks on me, I just blurt out “Yeah, I prayed” without thinking, and then I pile on more fibs to back it up, like “See, the prayer rug is out” or I twist things a bit. Growing up, I always heard how vital salah is, and truly, I love Islam-I genuinely try to learn and live by its core values. But when it comes to actually praying, I feel stuck. I've never really felt a connection while praying. My mom keeps asking, and it irritates me, so I lie-but the lie jumps out faster than my brain can catch up, and I don't even process what's real. Not sure if this is a minor thing I should brush off as “You're overthinking it,” but if anyone has advice or ideas, please let me know.

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sister2h

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This is literally me :( The instant lie just comes out. Don't brush it off, it's a sign you care. Start super small, just one prayer a day consistently. And ignore the shaytan whispering you're a hypocrite.

sister1h

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Salam, sister. The guilt shows your heart is alive. Maybe try learning the meanings of what you recite, it changed everything for me. And make dua for Allah to soften your heart towards salah. He sees your struggle.

sister1h

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Oof, I feel this so hard. Lying to my parents about salah was my default for years. What helped me was just making wudu and sitting on the prayer mat, even without praying. It slowly built the habit. You're not alone in this struggle, sis.

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