Forgiving and Reconnecting with My Ailing Mother as a Revert Muslim

As-salamu alaykum, I’m feeling really emotional writing this, but I need to share how Islam has softened my heart and pushed me toward mercy and forgiveness for my mother. She wasn’t perfect-far from it. I used to hold so much resentment because I went through emotional neglect, verbal abuse, and sometimes even physical stuff under her care. When I was little, I’d tell myself I’d run away and never look back once I grew up. Now I’m grown, married with kids, living on the other side of the world. I thought I’d reconnect with her after I’d healed, since it’s a major sin to cut ties with the mother who bore and raised you. But I was scared of getting pulled back into her manipulation-I think she has strong narcissistic traits. Today I found out her health is failing, and people say she doesn’t have much time left. I’m scared that by the time therapy and meds heal my trauma, it’ll be too late. So I’ve decided to reach out again. InshaAllah, may Allah give me the strength to tell her I forgive her, even if she never apologized. To say I’m sorry for being harsh-she did what she could back then. To say I love her, and that she gave me comfort in this tough world. Alhamdulillah for my sister venting to me about her struggles; it opened a door for me to learn more about my mother. If you’ve read this far, thank you for your care. Please make dua for my mother to have a long and peaceful life, if you can. Alhamdulillah.