Please make dua that I find peace with never marrying

Assalamu alaikum sisters, please make dua that I can accept not being married I deleted my earlier post because the replies just made me feel worse, and honestly that in itself feels like a sign - maybe Allah didn’t intend marriage for me. I’m crying as I write this because that thought really hurts. People keep saying “decenter men” as if that fixes everything. Is it wrong that as a Muslim woman I don’t mainly dream of a career, but of being a wife and mother? I do care about my job, but I don’t want it to be the only meaningful thing in my life. Some tell me, as a woman with a disability, to be open to marrying a man with a disability. That comes across as people saying “you’re the leftovers, so accept other leftovers.” I’m not saying people with disabilities are less - it’s just that in our communities we’re often treated like that. I’ve never heard anyone tell an able-bodied person struggling to marry “be open to marrying someone disabled,” but as soon as someone with a disability struggles it’s suggested like that’s an easy fix. The truth is many of us already carry heavy burdens managing our own bodies, and not everyone can take on more responsibility. I have the physical strength of a child; when I’m bothered by strange men outside I can’t safely tell them off because they could seriously hurt me. I can’t do regular self-defence classes because they’re not safe for my body. So how am I supposed to be okay with marrying someone who can’t protect me physically either? It feels like marriage clearly isn’t meant for me, so please please make dua that I can find peace with that and that Allah eases my heart. Honestly, if this is my fate, I’m scared of growing old alone - please ask Allah to give me contentment and patience, and to shorten my suffering if it’s what’s best. Aameen.