Please keep me in your duas - struggling with anxiety on a trip
As-salaam alaykum, I hope you’re all well, inshaAllah. This is a bit hard to share but I’m going through a rough patch and would really appreciate your duas. Lately I’ve felt distant from my deen - not praying properly and falling into sin. I’ve still kept my hijab and try to remember Allah, but after my divorce in November I’ve been coping in ways I’m not proud of and feeling pretty lost. Right now I’m on a beautiful trip abroad with family and a friend for the next 10 days, and instead of enjoying it I’ve been overwhelmed with anxiety and dread about being away from home. I usually get nervous at the airport and calm down after the flight, but this time I’ve cried and can’t seem to relax. I feel guilty for not being the Muslim I want to be - is this some kind of punishment? I also keep worrying about leaving my cat, even though a trusted sitter is looking after her, and I get intrusive thoughts about something bad happening. I feel selfish because I know I’m blessed to be here and it’s only a short trip, but I can’t shake the panic about being away from my safe place. To make things harder I’m on my period so I can’t pray right now, and I miss the comfort that prayer usually brings. Please pray that Allah (SWT) eases my anxiety, forgives me, and helps me reconnect with my faith. I would be so grateful if you could keep me in your duas. JazakAllah khair.