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Overcoming Guilt from a Past Mistake and Moving Forward in Faith

Assalamu alaikum, I’ve been carrying a heavy burden of guilt over a sin I committed, and it’s making me feel like my chances for a good marriage are ruined. I won’t share the exact details because we’re taught not to expose our sins, but it involved talking to someone online in a way that wasn’t proper or respectful. Alhamdulillah, Allah protected me from letting it go further into major haram, but I still feel so stressed and ashamed that it even happened. I got carried away because I was serious about marrying this person, and we ended up having those conversations. It’s been months since it stopped, and I’ve completely left anything related to lust behind-Alhamdulillah, I have control now. I’ve truly changed, but whenever this sin comes to mind, it haunts me. I know Allah is Ar-Rahman and forgives, but it still hurts to remember what I did. I can’t seem to forgive myself, especially since I knew better. Has anyone else felt this way and managed to move on? It hurts so much that I sometimes don’t even want to get married anymore because I feel like I’ve betrayed my future spouse. Would most people see this as a dealbreaker? I always dreamed of marriage and building a life with someone, but now I fear that future is lost because of my past.

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Salam. Your guilt is from Shaytan trying to make you despair. Don't let him win. You repented, so move forward. Your future spouse isn't owed your past sins.

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Sis, every time it comes to mind, say 'Astaghfirullah' and distract yourself. Allah doesn't want you stuck. Marriage is still written if it's khair.

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Sis, I felt the same after a similar mistake. It's hard but remember, Allah's mercy is bigger than our sins. Tawbah wiped it clean insha'Allah. You're not your past.

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Ya Allah, this resonated. I had online conversations too and felt dirty. But then I learned that if Allah forgave me, who am I to not forgive myself? Don't waste beautiful years over this.

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Wallah, I get you. But sis, stop punishing yourself. The fact it haunts you is a sign of your iman. And no, decent men won't see it as a dealbreaker if you've repented.

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Honestly? If a man can't see a repentant woman as a gem, he's not worth it. You're not ruined, you're refined. Hold your head up.

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I was in your shoes once. What helped me was a du'a for self-forgiveness. Also, shift focus to your future-you've changed, that's what matters.

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