My mother's behaviour spoiled my Umrah - seeking advice
As-salamu alaykum everyone, I hope you're all well. Allahumma barik. My mother has always been quick to anger and speaks harshly without thinking. Her mood swings a lot, and she often acts like the victim even though her actions cause emotional strain for those around her - especially me. She jumps to illogical conclusions, starts petty fights with my father, and when I step in to try to smooth things over she treats me cruelly and pushes me away, sometimes saying things like “Now my problems are solved. I don’t need you anymore.” This pattern repeats so often: she drags people into problems she creates and then abandons them once she claims to be fine. She often says she’s all alone despite being blessed, Alhamdulillah, with a husband and three children who support her. To me it feels selfish, and it’s taking a real toll on my mental and emotional well-being. Right now I’m at the House of Allah, Alhamdulillah, and yesterday her attitude ruined what should have been a blessed time. She left the Haram area and insisted she’d return to the hotel by herself. I had finished my part of Umrah but was on the far side and would have needed time to come back. Since she had a flight to Jeddah and hadn’t packed fully, I thought she might be stressed. I agreed to take her to the airport. But then she called again and was mean; I tried to explain a janazah was passing by so I couldn’t leave the gate, and she snapped “Fine I’ll go by myself!” I told her there was nothing I could do since she wouldn’t wait or share her location. She phoned my father for help and once I was free I rushed back to the hotel but couldn’t find her. My call went unanswered and my father ended up bringing her back. When I packed her things she began shouting that I’m ungrateful and don’t deserve to come to the House of Allah, even telling me I should never return. The whole floor heard. I stayed calm and reminded her she said she would go by herself, but she kept cursing and making a scene. She left for Jeddah and my father and I followed to find her. In the taxi she continued the same behavior, painting herself as the victim and ignoring how she’d ruined my first experience at my favorite place. I stayed quiet; later she seemed to regret what she’d done and even stopped for a meal, asking if I wanted food - I had no appetite. At the airport she tried to give me money. But love, respect, and forgiveness aren’t something you can buy. You can’t treat your daughter like an enemy and then expect money to fix it. I really need advice. I feel like Allah is all I have because I don’t know how to reach my mother anymore. Her insecurities, envy, anger, and harsh words toward me are beyond my understanding. I pray no daughter has to endure this. Jazakum Allahu khayran for any guidance.