Muslim Revert's Inner Struggles

Assalamu alaikum everyone. I'm a revert of 2 years, I embraced Islam at 17 and now I'm 20. I wear hijab and dress modestly, but I've been having a tough time with my prayers-haven't been praying for months after years of consistency. Sometimes I even think about removing my hijab, but for some reason I just can't bring myself to do it; it feels like it's become a part of me, even though I'm not sure I want to be Muslim anymore. Living in a place with lots of Islamophobia, I constantly get side-eyed, passive-aggressive comments, and people questioning my faith, which pushes me away. I often catch myself making dua or saying Alhamdulillah and Astaghfirullah, but without real intention. Honestly, I'm not sure if I believe in Allah. My family still doesn't understand why I chose Islam, and I struggle to justify staying. I can't feel connected to Allah, and I'm sorry to say that, but it’s the truth I’ve kept inside. I also have doubts, like why the Prophet (peace be upon him) had multiple wives-I just can’t make sense of it. I don't want to leave Islam because it's been 2-3 years and my parents and friends would see it as just a phase, but thinking about Islam makes me unhappy since I feel I'll never be good enough. I'm not looking for “be patient” advice-I've felt this way for a year now and just want peace instead of misery. Has any revert or Muslim felt like this and gotten past this hurdle?