I keep falling into the same sin and I'm struggling to forgive myself

As-salamu alaykum. I need to get this off my chest because it's eating me alive. About a year and a half ago, I was going through a really dark time emotionally and I ended up visiting a place I know is haram-a strip club. I felt disgusted with myself right after, but somehow, over time, I've gone back a few times. I even promised Allah after the third time that I'd never do it again, but then I found excuses. Like when I graduated with my bachelor's degree, I had no one to celebrate with-no close friends, no real family support-so I went back. I'm 24, I should know better. Lately, shaytan keeps whispering to me that it's okay because of my high libido or because I'm not married and I'm lonely. But I know these are just excuses. I hate myself for it and sometimes I wish I wasn't alive. I really need help and support from my brothers and sisters.