For Sisters Wrestling with Inner Doubts, Listen Up: When You Think Allah Doesn't Love You, What Do You Do?

AOA everyone, it's Duha here. We all know having insecurities is pretty common, but mine feel super intense. I end up questioning myself over every tiny thing, and I keep getting this heavy feeling that everyone around me dislikes me and doesn't really want me around. The main reason is, I had some really negative friendships a while back, and that left a deep impact. Even now, more than two years later, I still think about it, and it's where all these doubts, trust problems, insecurities, hurt, and constant worry come from. And then there's this-I'm someone who notices everything. I pick up on mood changes, tone shifts, and even small differences in how people act (yeah, I'm your typical overthinker 🙃). For a while, I've been pushing all this aside. But lately... I've been having these heavy thoughts. I keep feeling like everyone hates me, and now, this idea that my own Creator hates me. That Allah isn't listening because I miss prayers. Because I don't read the Quran enough. Because I'm not a good enough Muslim. Because I sometimes don't obey my parents. I know it's wrong and irrational and not true, and it's from Shaytaan. But I can't shake it. I'm only human, and I'm nowhere near perfect. I wanted to share this because I've seen so many Muslims helping each other out. I pray that Allah sends someone my way, since help from Him is the best help. Insha'Allah, I might also connect more with my Muslim sisters and brothers ❤️‍🩹 AOA and thanks for listening, because this was a real heart spill 🥹