Felt So Much Peace Praying On My Own for the First Time
As-salamu alaykum everyone. This might sound like a small thing to some, but for me it's huge. I wasn't taught how to pray growing up, and I'm at an age where some might say it's 'awkward' to be learning. But honestly, I don't care about that. What matters is feeling closer to Allah SWT than ever before. I'd been learning using a tutorial app, starting at a slower speed and increasing it as I got better. At first, I used headphones. Then, as I memorized more, I muted my phone, closed my eyes, and tried to recite from memory, only peeking if I got stuck to see where I was in the prayer. At the beginning, I thought, 'There's so much to remember, how will I ever do this?' But, alhamdulillah, after just a few days of praying five times a day (even if I prayed some late), I managed to pray Dhuhr today completely on my own-no phone, no app. The feeling is incredible and so peaceful. Praying at my own pace, making dua in sujood without pausing, choosing which surah to recite, and applying what I've learned in my own time... it all feels so much more meaningful. Now I feel I can pray anywhere, anytime, instead of relying on an app in my room. Now that I have this foundation, I want to learn more surahs to use in my salah. I kept asking Allah SWT for strength and to ease my struggles with prayer (I have ADHD and was worried about memorizing), and I truly feel He heard my dua. This is just the first step, of course. You never know when your other duas will be answered, but honestly, this was my most important one. I guess I just wanted to share that I'm happy I finally achieved something I always put off because it seemed too hard. I did it for Allah SWT, and if I can do it, maybe someone else in a similar situation can too.