Feeling Trapped, Limited Freedom, Strict Parents, and Searching for a Way Forward

Assalamu Alaikum everyone, I just need to share what's on my mind because I feel really trapped right now. My parents are very strict and protective. They control almost everything: how I dress, where I go, who I meet, even my studies and work choices. I hardly have any freedom and it’s really weighing me down. The family home doesn’t feel peaceful most of the time. Sometimes things are calm, but usually it’s so tense that I just want to escape. I’m a 21-year-old Palestinian Muslimah from the West Bank. I’m still studying, don’t have a job yet, and no savings, so moving out isn’t an option. Sometimes I think the only way out is marriage, then maybe moving abroad to continue my education, maybe work, build something for myself, and finally have the freedom I dream of. But I know marriage is a big responsibility and I don’t want to rush into it just because I’m desperate. I want to marry someone I truly love and respect, someone I can grow with spiritually, worship Allah with, and have a safe, healthy relationship. I’m not ready for children right now; I want to focus on building my life first. It’s hard though. I don’t interact much with men, and when I do online, many behave in ways that aren’t respectful. Long distance relationships aren’t something I want, and haram relationships are definitely not for me. Honestly, I don’t feel fully prepared for marriage yet. I’m stuck between wanting freedom and not wanting to rush into something unhealthy. I even feel guilty sharing this when people in Gaza are facing so much worse every day. I know my struggles aren’t the same as theirs. But still, I feel suffocated. I try to focus on my studies, take courses, connect with people, and plan my future, but it all feels pointless when the world around me feels like a cage. I don’t know what to do. One day a week I feel hopeful and think I can be patient, but the other six days I feel desperate to break free. I’m tired of feeling like my dreams and goals are trapped. Has anyone experienced something like this? How did you manage? How do you keep your hope alive when freedom seems so far away? JazakAllahu Khair for reading this. I’m asking for advice, support, and encouragement ONLY. I’m NOT looking for marriage proposals, husbands, or spouses. Please respect this boundary: DO NOT DM me for anything related to Nikkah or relationships. I’m sharing to find real help on my journey toward independence and fulfilling my dreams. Any unwanted proposals will be reported.