Feeling stuck doing things alone - assalamu alaikum, anyone else?

Assalamu alaikum everyone, Do any of you ever get this weird frozen feeling when trying to do things by yourself? Like extreme inertia, laziness, or just emotional disconnect that keeps you from starting? I can do amazing things when there’s an external reason - if it’s for someone else, or part of a group (I often start and lead projects, so I can have lots of drive)... but when it’s my own personal goals or simple tasks I lose all momentum and energy. Stuff like getting in shape, organizing the house, replying to emails, or working on a solo creative project feels dull and pointless emotionally. I know logically my goals are valid and important, but I don’t feel that inner conviction. Why does it feel like achieving something without a group or public recognition loses all reward and purpose? Where does this self-sabotage come from? Right now I have two big writing projects to begin (both solo), plus a health plan to eat better and go to the gym, and a solo recital to prepare. I’m really stuck. Any practical tips from people who struggle with the same thing? I’m thinking of joining a study circle or finding a small group to keep me accountable and give some social interaction - maybe that will help break the isolation and lift morale. Also open to ideas about Islamic ways to find motivation or structure one’s time. My parents are both good at being productive alone, which makes this feel even stranger. Jazakum Allah khair for any advice.