Can I ever feel confident wearing the hijab?

Assalamu alaikum - I’m 15 and haven’t started wearing the hijab consistently yet. The two main things holding me back are fear I won’t stick with it, and feeling like I look really unattractive in it. I’ve tried different colours and ways to style it, but nothing feels right. I want to feel beautiful so badly, and when my hair is out I do - I have long curly hair and I think that’s what makes me look nice. When it’s covered I feel like I lose that and it upsets me. Every Ramadan I try wearing hijab and the same thing happens: I end up crying because I think I look plain or awkward in it. I know in my heart this shouldn’t affect my relationship with Allah, but my insecurities keep getting in the way and make me feel worse. What can I do? I really want to become a hijabi but I care a lot about my appearance and I feel like the hijab makes me look horrible. For context, I live in the UK where many hijabs are styled with less coverage and people often wear makeup - they look really pretty, but I hardly wear makeup (maybe mascara sometimes and lip gloss). I don’t want to rely on makeup with my hijab, which makes this harder. Any honest advice, small tips on styling modestly while still feeling like myself, or encouragement would mean a lot. JazakAllah khair.