Assistance Please - Feeling Lost but Hoping for Faith
As-salamu alaykum. My name is Kat and I’ve been feeling really torn about opening my heart to Allah (swt). I wasn’t brought up religious-my parents were Christian-and lately life has been really hard so I feel a pull toward Islam. I honestly don’t know where to begin or what steps to take. I’m not knowledgeable about religion, and sometimes I wonder if Allah would accept someone like me. I’m only 19, and my life has been terrible. I grew up homeless and on the streets. I’ve been through things that have left me feeling worthless. Right now I don’t even have a dollar to my name. I don’t have family or friends I can rely on, and I’ve been desperate enough to think about doing things I’m not proud of just to survive. What stops me is a small feeling in my heart that maybe Allah has called me to Islam and has a better plan. I’m trying really hard to keep going and even put myself through college despite everything. Still, I struggle with feeling unworthy of Allah’s mercy. I’ve been making dua and asking Allah for guidance and help. I hope this message reaches a kind person who might offer some advice, support, or resources - even small guidance on how to start learning about Islam or where to find local help for housing/food or support for students in need. JazakAllahu khairan for reading.