Assalamu alaikum - I feel like I’m affected by sihr
Assalamu alaikum, I’m becoming more and more certain I’m affected by sihr. I wasn’t totally sure these past few years, but now my symptoms match what I’ve read about: strange marks appearing and disappearing on my body, overwhelming anxiety and depression, constant fear, and a bunch of health problems that make me feel ruined. I’m 18 and used to be healthy, confident, and hopeful about my future. Now my appearance and health have changed so much that I even left school and don’t see a clear career path - I don’t care about that as much, it’s the health part that terrifies me. I can’t feel anything positive because I’m always thinking about the symptoms and about the hereafter; writing this already makes me sick. I’m really scared because I don’t know much about sihr. I learned some ruqyah basics and I pray, but I’ve read stories of people for whom it didn’t help, and I’m worried the problems might be permanent. I don’t know if these illnesses will go away or if I’ll have to live with them. I also think this isn’t just a test. It feels dark and different. My family moved to a place where we were harassed by some people from a few Muslim families for reasons we don’t understand. They seemed very hostile and we suspected jealousy. Before we moved, I had no health problems; they started after we arrived, and my mother always said she felt uncomfortable there from the beginning. Back then I was 14 and didn’t think much of it, but now at 18 I understand what she meant. Thankfully my family doesn’t have these physical issues - it’s mainly me - so I don’t want to burden them, but I’m mentally fragile and I don’t know how much I can take. I feel lost. I pray regularly, I try ruqyah, I make dhikr, and I read Qur’an, but I want to know what else I can do. Are there specific steps or trusted methods beyond the general advice I keep hearing? Any knowledgeable brothers or sisters who can guide me on reliable ruqyah practices, duas, or scholars to consult? Please keep me in your duas.