Alhamdulillah - Islam Gave Me a Second Chance

Assalamu alaykum. I’m sharing this because maybe it helps someone else. When I was 20 I was sexually assaulted. After that I had months where I almost took my own life many times. I’d already had a serious suicide attempt at 18 that put me in hospital for four days. I felt completely lost, and that trauma felt like being thrown back to square one. I started praying and reading the Qur’an. At first it only helped a little, but that small light grew. Reverting to Islam was the best thing that happened to me. I found a community, a loving and kind husband, and a kind of hope I never knew before. I still have very hard days and I struggle a lot. But I have love for Allah (SWT) and for Islam, and I feel this is what’s right for me. Tonight I was really low again and had dark thoughts. I reminded myself it’s sinful to take my life, and that with Allah there is always hope. Allah does not burden a soul beyond its capacity. It’s still hard, but with tawakkul and support I believe we’ll get through it. If you’re going through something similar, please reach out to someone you trust and seek professional help too. May Allah grant us sabr and shifa.