Will I ever find happiness, please make dua for me
Assalamu alaikum, I’m not sure how to explain what I’m feeling, but I haven’t felt like myself for a long time. I grew up in a home where there was a lot of harm-my father hurt my mother, and my brother hurt our parents. Somehow I became the one trying to keep everyone together. I’m 25 now and I’m still stuck in that same role. Lately I don’t feel like talking to them much. No matter what I do for my parents, especially my mother, it goes unnoticed. My brother gets praised even when he barely does anything. It hurts in ways I can’t describe. Since 2024 my parents have been trying to find me a spouse. Last year I was talking to someone seriously about marriage, but it ended badly. He lied, he betrayed trust, and then he married someone else. I’m still waiting for my naseeb. After that I met another man. We exchanged biodata and spoke seriously; he was the one who suggested involving our families. The moment I told my family, he stopped replying. Then there was another proposal where the families showed interest and wanted a meeting, and suddenly they disappeared without any reason. I don’t know how much more I can take. I’m crying as I write this. I’ve been trying to be a better Muslim-praying with more focus, reading Qur’an regularly, doing dhikr-but sometimes I can’t help thinking… does Allah dislike me? I feel so alone, so tired, and so worn out from waiting. I need a little hope. Will my life ever get better? Please keep me in your duas.