When Trials Feel Unbearable

My body is slowly wearing out. I've been stuck in survival mode so long, I can't even recall what calm feels like anymore. Every day, it's like I'm just pushing to get through the next hour. I've prayed, made dua, tried my best to stay patient, but I'm drained. It's like carrying years of fear, stress, and pain without any real break. The hardest bit is sensing my faith slipping away. I don't want that. I still think of Allah all the time, but I'm struggling to grasp why this keeps happening. I'm not sure how much more I can take. I don't want anything huge from life-just some relief. I want to feel normal again. Right now, I'm physically and emotionally worn down, and I'm scared of what this is doing to me.