Terrified Allah Might Turn Away From Me, and I Can’t Find Peace

Salam, everyone. Right now my iman is really low. I feel so lost and I keep thinking Allah is upset with me. I want to cry but the tears won’t come. I just fell into a sin that I’m so ashamed of. It’s like I keep messing up my soul with this same sin over and over. I ask for forgiveness but I keep going back. This time it’s extra tough, my heart just feels dead and empty. Honestly, I’m really scared. Scared that Allah will ignore me, scared I’ll stray further, scared I won’t break free from this sin. Scared my heart will get sealed. I don’t know what to do. I just wanna be the best version of myself and get closer to Allah, have a pure heart and soul. If you’re reading this, please make dua for me. I truly need it.

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sister2h

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I had a similar phase and what helped was making sincere dua in sujood, crying my heart out to Allah. He answered me in ways I didn't expect. Don't lose hope, sister. Allah is As-Salam, the source of peace.

sister1h

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Sis, I feel you so much. That dead heart feeling is the worst. But the fact you're scared means your heart isn't sealed. Allah's mercy is bigger than any sin. Keep turning back, even if it's a million times. I'm making dua for you right now.

sister1h

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This hit home. The cycle of sin and guilt is so heavy. But remember, Allah says 'Do not despair of the mercy of Allah.' Your regret is a sign of iman. Stay strong, we're all rooting for you.

sister53m

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You're not alone in this struggle. The shaytan wants you to despair, but never lose hope in Allah's forgiveness. Try to change your environment or routine that leads to the sin. May Allah make it easy for you.

sister47m

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Don't give up, ukhti. Allah loves those who repent. Wake up for tahajjud and beg Him. He never turns away a sincere heart.

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