Struggling with Fasting in Ramadan While Caring for My 9-Month-Old Twins

Assalamualaikum everyone. I need some encouragement because fasting this Ramadan has been really tough for me, and I've missed most of the fasts so far. I work a regular 9-to-5 job, and thankfully my workload is lighter this week, so I'm hoping to fast at least the last few days. But I still feel guilty about the days I couldn't. We have help during the day for the babies, but both my husband and I are busy with our jobs then. When I try to fast, I get so drained and exhausted from lack of sleep that I struggle to focus at work or even pray Salah properly. After our help leaves at 3 p.m., my husband and I take care of the twins non-stop until around 9:30 p.m., juggling one baby after the other. It barely leaves any time to prepare iftar or eat myself. It feels almost impossible to fast, catch some sleep, cook, look after two little ones, and pray-all together. I end up with zero energy for the babies, so I've skipped fasting, trusting that Allah SWT understands my situation. The babies are formula-fed, which helps a bit, but they're not easy to feed and take forever with their bottles, need constant attention, and are just starting solids, which is a learning phase for all of us. No blame on them-they're just being babies, and I'm not complaining. My husband is going through the same struggles. He handles the night feedings because I take over during the afternoons and evenings until the babies sleep. Just looking for some kind words or support. I feel really bad because Allah SWT blessed me with these two precious gifts, and I can't even fast properly to show my gratitude. I'm not sure what to do... :(