Struggling with faith and hardship

I came from a very religious family, and as a kid, I was deeply devoted to Islam. But as I grew, my faith began to waver. I faced a lot of pain from a young age, including harm from family members and even a respected teacher who was supposed to guide me in my deen. At home, there was constant verbal abuse directed at my mother and us kids, and certain relatives only made things worse. Things got physically rough by the time I was a teenager. All along, I held tightly to my faith-maybe it was how I coped. Yet, around 15, my mental health started to suffer under the weight of everything. I won’t go into details, but my family put me through a very degrading experience, partly to avoid supporting my education. My studies fell apart; for three years, I’ve been failing as a student. I once had dreams, like succeeding so I could help my mother escape the mistreatment, but now I can barely open a book. I’ve been publicly shamed, and it feels like every part of me-my studies, my confidence-has been broken, both by my dad’s actions and past trauma. At eighteen, I feel lost, with no clear path forward. I try to pray, seeking some solace, but I struggle to even start. Sometimes I doubt that Allah has a plan for me, especially when those who hurt me seem to be doing well while I feel left behind. I want to feel closer to Allah and find hope, but I often feel abandoned. I even carry shame for quietly holding resentment these past years, as my life crumbled and I felt utterly alone. If anyone can offer advice or a different viewpoint to help me strengthen my iman, I would really appreciate it.