Struggling with faith and finances - need support

Assalamu alaikum everyone, I’ll keep this short. I’ve been battling major depression that mostly comes from lifelong money problems. Quick background: my parents were always poor. My dad used to own a very successful business but he let it fall apart. He was an alcoholic and didn’t pray. My parents separated when we were little and honestly we tried to avoid him, but legal visitation meant we saw him until we were adults. My mother raised two kids on her own and I’m grateful to her for that, but I can’t shake the feeling I got a rough deal in life. I’m married now and have a son. My husband is very weak in his prayers and we’re struggling financially. I’m full-time in school and work part-time in the ER. I handle dropping my son at school, his appointments, groceries, paying bills, and more. People have always told me I’m attractive - even with hijab I get unwanted attention and I shut it down, but I don’t ask my husband for things he can’t afford because I don’t want to burden him. Sometimes I feel like I followed my mother’s path and ended up with a husband who can’t provide. Did I not value myself? I married young partly for his looks, which now seem less important. He still hasn’t fulfilled the agreed mehr - a Hajj trip and 5,000 in cash. I tried to make our marriage easy for his sake and for Allah’s reward, but I worry I made a big mistake marrying him. Where do other women find husbands who can truly care for them and meet their needs? I’m exhausted and losing faith in Allah. This has been my reality for nine years. I work hard to avoid jealousy, but I see how Allah blesses some families with houses, cars, money, close families, and standing in their communities. Some people seem to have it all, while I feel made only for hardship. Why would Allah create me just to watch me suffer like this? I’m not asking for judgments - just advice, duas, or anything that might help me find peace and a way forward.