Struggling with Faith and Fear of Judgment

Assalamu alaikum, I really need some advice because I’m honestly terrified. Lately, I feel my iman slipping away bit by bit. It’s on my mind all day, and I can’t even sleep properly. I want to make tawbah, I truly do, but I never seem to actually do it. I keep wishing my faith would just return on its own, but deep down I know that’s not realistic. Even talking to AI doesn’t soothe me-I spent a whole night crying over how far I’ve strayed from Islam. I miss my prayers constantly, and I’m scared. With all the signs of the Day of Judgment appearing, I overthink everything but still don’t push myself to take action. I went through a phase of doubting Allah for two years, and I want to come back, but it feels impossible. I lie to my family, saying I’m still a practicing Muslim and that I pray, and they believe me. The guilt is eating me alive. I’m still young and the thought of jahannam makes my blood run cold-imagining my family in jannah while I’m the only one left behind. Maybe it’s the effect of living in a non-Muslim society, and I’m a perfect example of a hypocrite. Maybe I’m overreacting, but my heart and mind won’t settle down. If anyone has been through something similar, please help me. I just need a little comfort to know that I’m not a lost cause and that Allah’s mercy is still there for me. I need to hear that things can get better.