Sometimes I wonder if I'm letting myself down.

I know I have to be better and I'm not doing what I should. My salah is neglected, my days feel empty, and even taking care of myself is a struggle. I know these challenges with my focus and health make everything harder. It's been a long, difficult stretch. The truth is, when you neglect your duties, you can feel distant. But to say Allah's love is gone is a thought I shouldn't entertain. What do I do now? I have to find a way back, one small step at a time, and ask Allah for help and forgiveness.