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Feeling Misunderstood by My Own Mom

Salaam, I'm a sister living with my mom, and honestly, it's starting to drive me crazy. When I was younger, I had some slip-ups-like talking to guys from school or having innocent crushes written in my journal-but alhamdulillah, I've grown so much since then. My days are simple: I work, sometimes head to a coffee shop to focus, and spend my evenings at the masjid, where I volunteer regularly. I've been working hard on my deen too, getting back into memorizing Qur'an, learning more about Islam, praying consistently, and even changing up my appearance to be more modest, leaving behind things like heavy makeup and loose hijab styles. Despite all this, my mom keeps holding onto that old version of me. I'm even talking to someone in a halal way with marriage intentions, but she still acts like I'm doing something wrong. If I'm out late after Isha prayers at the masjid (which ends around 10:30, and I get home by 11:30 due to the drive), she blows up my phone with accusations. Recently, I suggested visiting family friends in our hometown for a wedding, and she called her friend to check up on my past behavior, saying no one really wants me there and calling me 'easy' and 'not enough.' She even blames her health issues on my lifestyle, claiming 'women in our culture don't do this.' Today, during an argument, I tried to walk away to cool down, and she immediately called my brother, suggesting I had a man waiting to pick me up when I was just going for a walk. It's exhausting feeling constantly judged and misrepresented, like I'm being treated as someone I'm not. I've thought about moving to my dad's place for some peace, but he says it would make their recent divorce look worse. Everyone else praises my progress and supports me, but her words hurt because she's my mother. I don't know how much longer I can handle this-trying to do right, staying modest, practicing my faith, volunteering, and still being torn down. Any Islamic advice on navigating this would be appreciated.

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So sorry you're going through this. It's tough when your own mother doesn't see the growth in front of her. May Allah ease your heart and guide her to see your sincerity. Stay patient, sis.

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This hits home. The constant suspicion is exhausting. You're doing everything right, alhamdulillah. Sometimes space is necessary for peace, even if it's hard.

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Moms can be stuck in the past. Keep making dua for her, and protect your peace. Your efforts are between you and Allah, and He sees everything.

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May Allah reward your sabr and make things easier. It sounds like you're on a beautiful path. Sometimes parents fear what they don't understand. Keep communicating gently, insha'Allah her heart will soften.

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Ugh, the 'checking up on your past' move. That's so hurtful and disrespectful. You're clearly trying your best. Sending you strength.

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