Seeking to Rediscover Faith: How Do I Return to Allah When I Feel Disconnected?

Assalamu alaikum, everyone. I grew up in a Muslim household, though my family wasn't very strict about practices. My parents pray when they can, but my siblings and I have fallen completely out of the habit of praying. I think we all still have fear of Allah in our hearts and are careful about how we speak about our deen. My extended family is more practicing, so keeping up appearances when visiting them-like pretending to pray-is really draining. I attended evening madrasah for two years, but now, as an adult, I can't even recite surahs confidently (except Al-Fatihah, which is basically muscle memory, lol). On the last night of Ramadan, my family prayed Maghrib together (my first prayer this year, by the way), and honestly, I felt nothing in my heart. I wanted to cry during sujood but held back. Afterward, we did the Eid takbeer, but my mind was completely elsewhere. I wish it were easier to have strong iman in Allah. Sometimes I fear I've reached a state of disbelief-even my post title reflects my honest struggle-and it makes me feel like there's no point in trying for Allah's sake because I'm destined for hell. Can anyone offer some kind advice or share similar experiences? JazakAllah khair.