Please Keep Me in Your Duas

Assalamu Alaikum, I’m reaching out because I really need your prayers. I’ve been struggling with mental health for a long time, going on and off medication since I was a teenager. Now that I’m in my late 20s, I still find myself stuck in this cycle. I wonder if this is a test from Allah, because years ago I joined a community focused on drawing and comics, but I ended up leaving because of the people there. The pattern repeats: I leave, then connect with someone else who also left for similar reasons, we talk and I start trusting them, but then they do or ignore something hurtful, and I feel betrayed again. I thought stepping away from groups where things like bad behavior or disrespect happen would bring me peace, but even when I leave, I still end up close to someone who disappoints me, and the cycle continues. I’m really tired of this, and sometimes I feel like this struggle might only end with my life. I don’t know if Allah is testing me to be more patient and less judgmental, or if this is a test to keep me away from bad influences. Honestly, I don’t know who I am anymore. Am I meant to keep cutting myself off from people until the end? If that’s the case, I pray that Allah makes it easy for me because I’ve reached my limit. The difference between trusting someone and having to cut them off can be just one day. My mind can’t handle trusting someone one day, only to doubt their character the next. It’s hard to understand why people are afraid when they’re questioned about their actions, especially when they believe they’re right. Sometimes I just don’t get this world anymore. Please make dua for me, I need strength and guidance.