Only Daughter Feeling Diminished, Need Dua
Assalamu Alaikum, I usually try to pray as soon as the time starts. Today I went to my parents’ room to find my hijab so I could pray Duhr right at 12:16 PM. My dad began shouting, calling me crazy, and my parents started speaking badly about me behind my back. This really upset me because praying on time matters for my imaan and it’s part of my routine. Even small things get me labeled. If I stand in front of the mirror, my dad says I’ll go crazy and calls me crazy. My mom also calls me crazy and stupid, sometimes even in front of other people, just because I wanted to pray. My dad has told me I look like a man and that I’m fat. He complains about how I look, but that makes me feel insecure - and honestly it’s partly because of how he treats me. Once when I went to hug my cousin, my dad yelled, “Go away, don’t touch me,” so loudly. Later I found out my cousin told others how much my parents dislike me and how they shout at me. A few weeks ago my mom even slapped me in front of my cousin. When something wrong happens in the family, they often blame me instead of looking at the other person’s behavior. My dad often says I’m his worst child, even though I’m his only daughter with two brothers. I keep hoping for his love, but I feel constantly criticized and belittled. My mom says I’m jealous of everyone even though I’m not - I pray for everyone, for even the smallest things. It hurts that my own parents seem to hate me and treat me so badly while they treat others better than me. Please make dua for me and any advice would be appreciated. JazakAllah khair.